Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The latest dream...

Oh my, how dreams change and form.



I dream of simple. I dream of no stress. I dream of clarity.



My dream is fung-shuy. But, I'm an artist, so I know that won't quite work.



I dream of home-cooked meals. A calendar that we look at. A clean house. Laundry that is put away. Nada clutter. You can dream, right?



I dream of windows. Laundry in its place. My own room (yes, Ben's too!). Charlotte's cute pink and green room with painted funky flowers and a "big girl" bed.



I dream of having my plants back in my custody (Swizzle, SPIKE--oh, I miss spike!, Dr. Seuss, Cloey, Rex, doodle). My plants are in foster care right now.



I dream of having my own house again...this is what that MIGHT look like....

the HAMPTON house.

Will it be our house? Pray, please. Thanks.

Speaking of dreams...
Throughout the past 6 months, we haven't put much thought into what our "next house" will be like. It was more like...hopefully we will have an "our house" again. We did know that we would rather it NOT be the townhouse.

We were on a foreclosure kick for a few weeks. We found some great fixer-uppers...and one that was WAY to big, but a great deal that we loved. But, the moral of the story is...it has to make one simple equation work. We HAVE to be able to afford it. I know, that sounds like a stupid DUH comment...

Did our "dream" look like Ben's brothers house? It does now.

PRAY that the details of our idea will fall into place. In a nutshell, we CANNOT afford much more than anything we are paying right now. We are not paying a mortgage, we are not paying utilities, or for childcare. We have a *&!$-load of debt, in case you forgot. With rediculous interest rates and high payments. Credit cards are of the devil, in my opionion if you forgot that too. CUT THEM UP, now. Be done with them.

So, for the amount we pay in bad decisions, we could roll that into a house & pay the same of less...and afford a house. This is not what Dave Ramsey would say to do, but we think that it might be our best choice.

A few reasons why: We can't live here for free for much longer. Andrew's house with a few renovations/additions would be just fine (good location/blah blah). It would help Andrew. He would be a part of a family...hopefully this will help him to have a little more structure in his life. And, with Andrew living there/paying part of the mortgage it obviously makes it more affordable.

Gotta find a mortgage person. We had a potential investor that would make some $$ on this venture, but that didn't work out. Hopefully we can get approved & move forward. Easier said than done, I'm sure. Pray.

If it goes as we "dream" we will add a living room & finish the basement. Andrew will have a bedroom/bathroom/kitchen-ette downstairs. The laundry room will be downstairs. Upstairs: two bedrooms, one full bath, kitchen, dining room, and we would add a living room. It is small but cozy and would be great.

Pray. I'll keep you posted.

God answers prayers.

Even "stupid" ones. Here goes: I NEED new flip flops. My big toe has met the pavement. I love my rainbows. They are comfortable. I value "nice" shoes after seeing how your legs and back hurt with cheap shoes. But, I cannot afford to spend $50 on new flip flops.

I have some green rainbows that had been lost for months. I prayed for flip flops. Yup, I did. I asked Ben to as well, but he must have not been convicted of the "need."

We were eating dinner the other night in the formal dinning room at Pam's (home). Charlotte was crawling under the table....and FOUND my flip flops :)

Answered prayer.

Thankful

If I haven't said it lately...I am SO VERY VERY VERY thankful that I have my mom to take care of Charlotte every day. On this venture to financial freedom, it would be MUCH more difficult if I was paying for childcare. I know it makes you guys wanna barf when I say that...but I KNOW that I am lucky and blessed. Thanks mom, and dad.

Even, in a basement, I am spoiled beyond belief. Actually, I think I am probably even more spoiled in a basement.

Charlotte walks to the steps, and points "up up up", "papa," to go up and see Mimi & Papa.

I am thankful.

And, I am thankful for all of my friends. I miss you guys though. I feel like we are all so spread out and busy. Gotta fix that.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Am I forgetting do be drastical?

Or is this becoming a habit that we will be able to continue? I'm scared of loosing track of drastical. I'm scared of making another mistake.

I spend $56 at K-mart (K-MART) yesterday, and felt like I did something wrong. Wow. I miss the good-ol-days. I contemplated $5 jeans, $6 sunglasses, $5 beach towels for ever. Wow. I guess we haven't lost track of drastical.

"Do not be anxious about your life." Live it.

Addicted.

To reading everyone else's blog, except for my own. It's time to start blogging again.

The blog I'm addicted to is: Two Hobbits and A iant. (http://www.marquissclan.blogspot.com/) Read it, if you need to feel inspired, or need a reason to pray. An inspiring family!